it's over. it's finally over and done with. *sighs* this week, i was swamped with assignments and tests. let me just go over what i had to do. this week, i got 3 assignments. one was a math assignment, one was a paper on evolutionary biology from a sociobiologist's perspective, and an assignment for computer science which i can only do on Sun workstations. -_-; i had a test on wednesday in japanese. i have yet to have my next japanese test (which is supposed to be today). the reason i'm happy and all, is because it's over (for the most part). i finished my comp. sc. assignment a few days ago (i was strangely motivated to finish it one day O_o), i finished my paper yesterday afternoon, and i finished my math assignment during maren's psychology class that i sat-in on last night/evening. her psychology class was cool…it's a 3 hour class, so i had lots of time to work on my assignment…but i kept getting distracted; it was too interesting. i really loved the part about phantom limbs…people whose limbs don't exist (because of birth defections or amputations) that can still feel the limbs attached and sending pain and feeling to the brain. it is essentially perception without sensation, which i found intriguing. her prof is so cool too…she is hilarious. i tried getting into that class, too, but it wouldn't let me in. it's really hard for anyone other than psychology majors or minors to get into those classes. -_-; since maren's a psych major, she didn't have a problem. i'm jealous. speaking of maren, i think i'll add her to the friends page of my site soon. *_* i stayed at the school for a little while to finish my math assignment, and i handed it in (at like…10:30pm). so, i stay in the computer lab for a while…and it's like midnight before i decide i should go home. so i start walking home, and this guy starts following me from the moment i leave the university. it's freaking me out; everywhere i go, he goes. so, i cut across an area through a condominium complex on my way home. bad move. there's lots of trees and buildings and vehicles there. lots of shadows for him to lurk in. lots of corners for him to hide behind and kill me from. i was so paranoid. on the other hand, i did lose him by going through there. i didn't see him the entire way home. so i guess i was lucky…but every little noise made me jump a foot off the ground. i was so paranoid. i don't know if i mentioned this before, but my school took down the US flag a little while back. i mean, i didn't expect it to stay there…but i just thought i'd mention it. hmmm…i just got out of japanesee class, and i have another one here in a few minutes. now that i look around the computer lab i'm in, i see a bunch of the people in my class that are probably killing time like i am right now, waiting for our next (nearby) japanese class. :D and i just realized this is just one huge paragraph that's going to take up a lot of space in my itty-bitty frame on my site (that no one ever visits or reads anyway). i think i'll just stop typing now.

or not…
kley and poli are going to get drunk tonight. *_* yay…voice chat time! *_* and i'll be home with a mic and everything. this is turning out better than i thought. oh wait…my uncle is probably there. great. cancel everything. -_-;;; ok, now i need to stop typing.

well, it's been a little while…but oh well. :D nothing has really been going on lately in my life anyway. yesterday, i gave up anime club again to go off and discover my spirituality. :( well, when i look back on it now, the bonding moments i made with my friends were worth it…and i'd probably sacrifice the anime club meeting again if i had to do it over. *sigh* i guess i'll only be able to do that once a month from now on…for the club's movie night. they're showing some kinda…crappy-ish movies this month. except for perfect blue. *_* but maybe that'll be something to hold onto rather than their weekly meetings that conflict with my schedule. anyhow, i'm doing pretty good. i think things are better between jodi, burg, and i…but i'm not 100% sure on that. i can only hope…but things seem better…that's not to say for certain that they are. -_-; oh well…again, i can only hope.

i feel so bad. i didn't really want it to turn out this way, but i skipped 2 classes today. ;_;!!! i didn't want to be one of those people that skipped classes…now look at me. i'm skipping 2!!! in one day!!! consecutively!!! -_-;;; i don't know what i'm going to do. i have sociology class here in a little while. i will not skip that. i don't have a text for that class yet…i can't afford to skip it. computer science, on the other hand, is sooooooo boring. x_x i can get more out of the text than i can from the prof's lectures that i can't understand. anyway…i think i'll end on that note. things are getting better…and i don't know what else exactly to write in here. *posts*

minako dreams: I should post in my blog
thenetferret: i did in mine today already. i don't think i can post in another
thenetferret: my life is too boring
thenetferret: >D
robyngirl29: i finally made an archive page for my blog ^^;;
minako dreams: ditto ferret
thenetferret: i think i have one of those
thenetferret: but…i don't know how to work it
Faith ful LOVE: a life?
thenetferret: rofl

that was lame. -_-;;; yet, funny. and yes, i have no life (yet), nor an archive page for this blog (yet). :D *goes back to pornolize.com. >D *laughter trails off*

last night was amazing. i couldn't believe i was like…a few meters away from fred penner. for those of you that don't know anything about the guy fred penner is a childrens entertainer from a while back. his audience today are the college and university students. it was kind of sad because i found out that an even bigger canadian childrens entertainer, mr. dressup, died yesterday. ;_;!!! it's amazing how mortal we are…even the ones that didn't know us, yet we knew them. *sigh* last night was probably the most nostalgic i have ever felt in my entire life…and fred penner himself said that that was only part of the reason he was going around to canadian universities, and such. he shared messages with us as little children; i guess he wanted to share more advanced, and more applicable messages for us today. messages about life. he was so inspiring. even through the songs he used to sing on his show and stuff make so much sense in life these days. they're the most simple messages of love, happiness, and goodness…even if they're intended to be for little kids. maybe it was the nostalgia, but i think i got a lot out of last night. it was totally worth my $2. :) it was supposed to be $1, but i lost my ticket. -_-;;; so yeah, that was last night. it was fun. *_*

jodi and i are going to do something on friday. probably hang out, or go to a football game. i'm not even going to tell burg. she can go on her little date and pull another ritualistic all-nighter if she wants. she just better invite me next time. >=)

it's amazing what you can learn in a day. if you've read my previous two blogs on here, i haven't exactly been the happiest of campers, so to speak. -_-; today was kind of special. of course, everyone knows about the tragedy that happened in NY and Washington last week. well, the university of lethbridge (my school, in case you didn't know) decided that they would have a special ceremony thing in the main court by the students' union building to pay tribute to the ones that have lost their lives in this tragedy and to express open arms of support to the many families that have lost loved ones in light of the one-week anniversary of everything. right by the students' union building they have three flags flying. they have the canadian flag, the alberta flag, and the university's flag. they took down the university's flag and put up an american one. that kind of got to me…in a good way, that is. that and the entire ceremony moved me; i mean, here we are…on the other side of the continent (in a different country completely, no less) and we were expressing grief for the people that were killed. i mean, i didn't exactly learn anything new about the whole ordeal, but it helped me in my life to realize that no matter what i go through, there will probably (and hopefully) never be a time like this that i will have to experience. no matter how bad things get, there are hundreds of thousands of people that have it many times worse than i do. it forced me to look at the up-side of my life, rather than dwell in the negative. they had condolence books open for signing, but i had a class. they'll still have them for signing for the next couple days. i'll eventually write my comments in there before they send it off.

so, i've been forced to look at my life differently. i've decided that i've got to stop being a pussy and i've got to start doing things on my own. instead of assuming burg is going to let me tag along with her and her friends, i ask them all if i could join them, rather than moping when i don't get invited. maybe i'll finally find out if burg really doesn't want me to spend time with her and her new friends…but i'm starting to doubt that more and more every day. we're going to see fred penner tonight. for some reason, he's coming to our school for a performance, or something. i don't know if fred penner is even known outside of canada. in case you don't know, he's a well-known canadian childrens entertainer that has been a part of the majority of my generation's childhood. burg rented mulan. i want to watch it with her. it's one of my favorite disney movies (and i haven't seen it in a long time, either). maybe she'll let me watch it. *angelic grin* ooo…fred penner starts in an hour. maybe i should start wrapping up this blog.

let's see…what else is there to say? i've been feeling kind of sick lately. i think i know why, too. for the last couple of weeks (since i moved out) one would consider my eating habits to lead down the path of malnutrition, so to speak. -_-; the last few days or so, i've actually started eating pretty good (even though i eat meals at weird times…i.e. 3:30 lunches). so, i think my body's adjusting from being malnourished to actually being fine…and there's some sort of transition in between. not pleasant, but hey…at least i'm eating food and such. *_* aaaaaaand, i've been getting all my first assignments this week. it's really insane. i don't know how i'm going to finish them all. x_x! i started my math one…but that's it. my computer science one is going to be insane considering i don't know how to freaking work a UNIX computer, nor do i understand my prof's speaking…his accent is brutal. x_x! anyway, i'll manage. i'll be getting a liberal ed. assignment soon, too. joy. anyway…i think i'd better end this blog for today, i think i'm just rambling and i know aaaaaall this text isn't going to fit nicely in my itty bitty frame on my site. >=)

i, like many, am devistated. it's been almost 2 days since the twin towers/pentagon accident. i'm shocked and saddened by it all. but of course, life must go on. the play of life must go on. i've tried to live my life as unaffected as possible…but i can't escape it online, or in real-life conversation. one of the local channels has permanently become CNN. x_x i feel kind of pathetic, because i watched it for like…2 hours last night instead of doing homework. anyway…that's all i can really think about…but i try to live life normally. i got an anime club form today. i'm going to sign up and be happy happy happy. *_* anyway…i'm hungry…and i think i'm going to go home now. it's dark out. i have a hard time opening up to my blog, so don't blame me for these meager spurts of nothingness that no one reads anyway. -_-;

ok…i have seriously neglected my blog…and i apologize. i've been busy with school and everything and i don't have my own computer at the moment (on a full-time basis), so it's been kinda…weird remembering about blogging when you still have to get used to the fact that you have to make yourself supper tonight. :) *sigh* anyway…i'm currently spending my 3rd official day in university. first of all, i just have to ask if it's normal for there to be so many hotties around. >D anyway…(*snickers*) i have great classes…but at weird times. i just got out of 2 japanese classes…i know i'm going to just love that class. *_*!!! my professor is great, and i can tell she's probably my favorite one this semester. i've only had one sociology class this semester…but my professor looks like a student himself…and i know that's going to be a fun class. my liberal education teacher talks to much…i guess that's what you get for taking a weird class. well, what do you expect? he's a philosophy prof for crying out loud. he talks aaaa lllllloooootttttt. anyway…he won't be teaching everything in that class anyway. in case you don't know, liberal education is a class designed to take students through a bunch of departments in the arts and sciences. first up: evolutionary biology. x_x considering that i think the ape/human evolution theory has some major issues to work out…this is going to be juuuust fun. *sigh* anyway…my math class is just…@_@!!! we've gotten right into things. i told burg after my math class: "if i was learning how to swim, they wouldn't just tell me to jump in the deep end, now would they?" computer science is 10 times worse. ok…i have a prof from india, or something…and i can't hardly understand him because his accent is sooooo strong. @_@! his writing is terrible, too! so, there's like…no form of communication possible between him and i. i have no idea how i'm going to pass this class. maybe the lab and tutorial prof will be able to help (which is a different prof than this weird-talking guy). i thought learning c++ was supposed to be fun. :(
burg and i went to see american pie 2 yesterday…and i realized that hammy is michelle (the flute fetish girl)! >D maybe only to a degree (without the backstabbing deceit involved with hammy, of course) but still…@_@!!! anyway…i have a math class right now…so i'll be going to that now…

tomorrow's the big day. moving out. that's right…moving out. you know what's really ironic? i didn't truely appreciate my family until today. today was one of those days that will be hard to forget. i don't want to divulge many personal details into a blog (even though no one reads this anyway), but i can't believe i discovered how important family is the day before i move out. truely ironic, if you ask me. well, it's midnight…and i don't really have much to say. i got to the point, pretty much. anyway…i'll probably blog next from university. @_@ scaryyyyyy.

well, i was under the impression that i'd be moving in to my new place today. well, i was slightly wrong. yes, i did move in…but i moved my stuff in. well, most of it. mostly furniture and stuff like that. and we also "donated" a fridge that we've had in storage to the house, so i have a fridge there…we also brought that over today. i just need to bring my small stuff and clothes. i, apparently, am moving in on monday…which is a holiday, btw. the guys there seem really nice…i'm happy because of that. that's about all there is to it though. i'm freaked out, somewhat. but i'm looking forward to it…sort of. every time i analyze it, i keep getting scared. when i look ahead to my future, i am somewhat happy…looking forward to the good times that may, or may not, occur. last night i got virtually no sleep whatsoever (thankfully, i napped all afternoon long to catch up on lost sleep). i didn't sleep last night because, well, i question life itself. let me backtrack. i lay in bed, staring at the ceiling. i'm not too comfortable with uncertainty. i deal with it, however. this is different; i can't put my finger on it. there's something different giong on that i wish i knew more about. my life is changing…whether it be for the better or for the worse, i believe that's my uncertainty. everyone's always like "oh, everything will be fine…you're going to have a great time" but i can't help but wonder how well i'm going to cope with this change in my life…possibly the most radical change in my life to date. so as i stare at the ceiling at night, i wonder if it's even worth analyzing. it's a lot like me posting to this very blog. i often wonder if people even read this. i often doubt that people even care about me enough just to read up on my life…even so much as to skim through a helpless little blog. such is my life. i don't even know if i care enough to worry about my own life. it's complicated, and i can't help but wonder if i'm rambling right now…so i'll just eat my candy i have here with me and post this blog…
…right…
now.

probably my last late night blog ever. i'm moving out tomorrow…well, i should say today. ^-^; i don't know what will become of me. my future is so unknown right now, i don't know if i can handle it; i'm having so many mixed emotions right now, it's crazy. x_x i hope everything turns out.

i spent most of today trying to get silent revolution up…even though it's really not all there. i thought i should put what i have up there since i won't have many opportunities to do so in the future. :(

well, i said goodbye to AIM today. i had to make sure that i did that, just in case i don't come back to it on a regular basis. i'm going to miss it. i'm scared. i'm very very scared. on that note, i'll end this blog for tonight. :(