work was so fun today. almost as fun as being shot in the head. :) maybe it's unhealthy to not talk about it, but if i start talking about it… it makes it worse and i get mad. so i don't talk about it. first rule of night shift… you don't talk about night shift. :P

and, just as i told hammy moments ago, i have this hurtful rant i'd really like to post at this very moment. but i'm not. and she wants me to post it. but i'm not. allz i have to say is… i remember when i, along with others, used to mock the people who went MIA… but those people who i mocked with aren't allowed to go MIA themselves. they just aren't. because i can't mock them. that'd be wrong. it's a really awful dilemma they're putting me in. :( and that's all i have to say about that.

okay. hammy's been waiting for it. time for me to post about my new sims stuff that you've all been waiting for (hehe, yeah right). they are anime sims. :D

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sorry, hammy, i'll blog about anime sims tomorrow. i don't feel so good. and i need to go to bed. instead… i did this…

i think i've done this thing at least three times now…

information about me for my "high" and "very high" results (you may not want to read these until you do the test yourself, i might add):

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oh well… i like carrie, but i don't know if i'll buy her album. i'll buy bo's probably. i'll give both albums a quick listen before i buy either. i'm happy for carrie though. she pulled a kelly clarkson. which is why i knew she'd win. she was never in the bottom three ever. i'm glad i didn't miss the end of the finale. i got home at 10:45, and the show ends at 11:00. x_x

canadian idol starts next week. >D i love how it immediately starts up after american idol. i can't wait to see all the bad auditions! *_*!!!

i finished training the two new people we got at work. yay. x_x the one used to work at a bakery, but not one of ours. so she knows how to do a lot of stuff already. i trained her on saturday. the other… knows nothing. and i trained her on sunday. and tonight. she got two days of training. @_@ just goes to show you how much she needed it. i wasn't supposed to work tonight at all, but i agreed to help train her more. i, myself, was worried about how she'd handle doing the evening shift alone. x_x so i was happy to do it. more money for me. :D i'm not sure how much i like her. she's nice, and all, and she says she enjoys working with me a lot (more than everyone else, in fact). i'm always nice to everyone, so of course she's going to say that. she likes talking about really personal stuff, though. @_@ like… i've worked with her twice now and she's asking me things like, "so what's your girlfriend like?" x_x;;;;; i made the -_- face. we just don't talk about personal stuff like that at my job. i now know more stuff about her than i do about all the other people in the department combined. x_x which is crap i don't want to know about. and she's kinda slow… so i hope she doesn't get fired or anything. she can do it, though, if she concentrates.

i got an email saying my payment for my domain was cancelled. but i didn't receive anything telling me to fill out any new information. o_O so i'm waiting on that… any day now… my domain might be gone in a few days if that happens. @_@

i'm listening to the sugarcubes. :D "birthday" is playing right now. this song is really bad. it's so… weird and wrong. child molestation, or something? why don't i post the lyrics. :D i don't really have much else to say, so i'll end on that. :D if anyone wants me to send them the song, i'd be more than happy to. :D

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okay, continuing where i left off… here's the other half of that big sims update i promised.

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*blogs about maplestory now before hammy gets too upset*

i actually PQ'd a few times. this girl in my party and i jumped up and down on the hard-to-jump-to platform… making faces and dropping items to distract people. it was fun. >D

self-explanitory. look at the experience meter… and the chat box.

doing the level 30 thief job advancement. i was a little shocked to see cold eyes. @_@ they're way easier to kill than regular cold eyes, thank goodness. oh, and don't mind the ugly outfit. i was mid-outfit transition. i didn't have enough money to buy the hat or the pants.

i was so happy when i got here. you have no idea… this is the end of sabitrama's jumping quest. it took me well over an hour. tears of joy. tears of joy.

this is what it's like to hunt green mushrooms. you get a freaking MACE every ten minutes. -_- i don't want a mace, i want a PAN LID! >:O

look who i ran into while walking around in ellinia!! @_@ tanya and karl's friends. @_@ we all miss them terribly and can't wait for them to get back from their vacation. :(

and that's it. i'll update sims later…

this was going to be a comment on lbeth's blog, but i'm going to post it here because it was getting too long. :D

lbeth… i feel so bad you won't be able to wear the mystery costume which isn't really a mystery anymore. ;_; (yes, everyone, it's not a mystery anymore… go read about it if you haven't.)

i need to make this up to you. seriously. x_x i will send you stuff.

oh, and did you know that naruto is still being subbed? @_@ by the same people and all? are your morals loose enough to download licensed anime? >D it's not like it's been aired or anything. not that i care about naruto… i'm just happy they're continuing with ah my goddess. *_*;;; this tv series makes me love urd even more. *_*;;;;;;; she's so lewd. >D shockingly, i'm usually a little more mature than this, but i love it how there's never a shot of urd without major cleavage showing.

okay, so yeah… cyberpixels is really slow. @_@ i need to change my billing before the month ends. because they'll try to bill my credit card… and it won't work. that one's been cancelled. and i want to upgrade my service as well as change my credit card info… but it's been like over a day and no reply. -_- oh well, i can wait a bit longer… i hope she hurries up though. so if my domain goes byebye for a while… that's why.

HAMMY WANTS ME TO POST THIS POST SO I WILL POST IT NOW. GEEZ HAMMY!!! >:O

note to self: blog about sims later. and maplestory.

a few quick things before i tell the bad news.

apprentice. i knew kendra would win. oh well. tana… freaked me out there for a minute in the finale. o_o and i think kendra is better suited for trump anyway. i still like tana better as a person, but oh well.

my cat. she's gone batty. she's very… violent in how she displays affection. and bossy. she used to sit next to me while i was on the computer until i invited her up onto my lap. then i'd pet her for a while. now she just jumps up without warning (scaring me half to death) and demands that i pet her. she headbutts me in the face until i obey. @_@ she used to headbutt everyone in their beds while they were sleeping because she wanted people to pet her at 3:00am, but she's over that now (probably because we used to get mad at her for doing that >_>). and then she'll knead bread (with her claws out) while she's getting her way. don't most cats do that? lately she'll also BITE my chin while i'm petting her. x_x yep. definitely batty.

okay. i must get this out before i put it off any longer. there's a good chance i won't be going to california any time soon. let me explain why this isn't my fault. my mom found out that her old job has opened back up (under new management and with new, better staff). she was actually just a temp worker there before while one person was on maternity leave. not to mention she's been going through some crazy stuff at her work now that normal people would quit over. anyway, her old job was in red deer, which is a city an hour and a half south of here if you didn't know. she's applied for it, and there's a very good chance she'll get it.

i do not want to live in red deer. it's a city the size of lethbridge. and cities that size are no good, in my opinion. burg and i know very well how people have to die before you'll get hired for a job in cities like those. even if i went to red deer college (which is a pretty good school, actually)… i still don't want to live in that city. and who ever said i wanted to quit my job that i have now?? whether i go to school in the fall or not… i still don't want to quit my job. i'd work restricted student hours. no big deal. i'm comfortable with it. i hate the whole unemployed-and-looking-for-a-job thing… it sucks. it's nice to actually have one (and one i can do well… when we're not renovating -_-).

so, yeah. i have to make some very tough choices. do i go to california, quit my job when i get back, stay living with my mom, and live in a stupid city that i hate? or do i put what little money i have saved toward an apartment here in edmonton and maybe, just maybe, try to get into some sort of school this fall (why must application fees cost so much??). any money i can put toward that would help so much. since it kinda costs thousands of dollars a year, and all. if i went i'd be completely broke when i got back. and i can't exactly pull damage deposit money out of thin air.

i've done everything in my power to get down there. i really mean that. ever since before christmas, in fact. so much crap has happened to me lately that i'm starting to lose hope. it's like everything's against me when it comes to this. and i hate to be the one, once again, to apologize for getting people's hopes up (mine included). if you want to hate me you have every right. i already hate myself, so you might as well join the club. i hate myself for being that guy who really wants to go places so badly that he tells them he's coming but never shows up.

have i given up hope entirely? no. i might be able to make it work. we'll see. it's getting down to the wire now, isn't it? hopefully i'll know in about a week weather or not my mom got that job and what plans she has after that. assuming for a moment that she didn't get the job, that means i can stay living in edmonton semi-rent-free, with my job still secure, and future expenses i don't need to worry as much about. which means more money i can spend now.

don't even get me started on the guilt i'm feeling for hoping my mom doesn't get a job she really wants.

oh, and just to prove that i was/is totally serious about this… i decided to not apply for the fall semester at the university of alberta because i didn't want to spend money on the $100 non-refundable application fee. i wanted to put it toward california (and worry about what i'd do for school later). i guess i'm just dumb like that, but yeah… i wanted to go that bad. even if it meant not getting into school this upcoming year. and, well, the application deadlines have come and gone and i won't be going to the u of a now. soooooo… yeah. i think there's a transfer program at grant macewan college still open, but i'm not holding my breath over it. i'm kind of screwed in this department either way.

yay, laundry's… almost done. x_x; i think i'll try to get some sleep while the next load goes in…

well, right after i posted that i went and played a little bit and the double exp was over. :( oh well… anyone up for pq? >D hammy… you're catching up. let's go do pq. *_* i hope i get black crystal ores. or emerald earrings. oh, also last night… i passed through henesys hunting grounds and it was deserted. O_O isn't that scary? and all the monsters were in the wrong spot. x_x hacker? most likely.

*goes to play it for real* going to be an assassin for real this time. then maybe go hunting for wooden tops. -_-

see… since my internet came back… i've been playing lots of maplestory. those of you who play it should know by now that maplestory beta is semi-over. you have to redownload the new, official client. and it'll overwrite your beta client. only beta users can sign up for usernames at the moment though. i'm sure new signups will be open very, very soon though. the beta game will still work and will be used for testing purposes, so your beta characters technically aren't lost. i doubt they'll ever have an option to bring them over to the official game. so i started over. i like doing that. i managed to snag a few great character names on the day the official game opened up. :D my main character is "ferret"… so add me if you haven't. *_* he's an assassin in training. well… 75% more and he'll be an assassin. *_*; HASTE. YEAH!! anyway. >_>;;; i've been power leveling like crazy… they're offering double the experience points and better drop rates until wednesday (which is today technically!). i think it's supposed to be for the beta testers to help restart their characters. and, let me tell you, it's great. *_*;;; no panlid though. -_- not that i need it. hammy does though. :( poor hammy. just go buy one for cheap in perion. seriously, i'll bet they're so cheap right now. you're rich, hammy, after all. :(

poor people who have no idea what i'm talking about.

oh! i have screenshots! they're big, so consider yourselves warned. looking back on my other screenshots… did i ever show this picture at all? some high level team wanted a cleric to come along with them to fight harder monsters that are soooooo over my head there (well, more like they wanted me to heal them while they faught… they'd shout out "MEDIC!!!!" if i they were approaching death and i was lagging behind them >D). x_x;; and he's making the ._. face there, btw. you can't really tell. i actually killed a cold eye though! go me! and i looted some cargo crystal thingies. >:D but that's over. byebye beta. byebye cleric. :(

okay, so now we're into my current stuff. this was yesterday: floating jr. neckis!! O_o later on i saw a bunch of floating stumps around ellinia… and watched them being positioned. @_@ definitely a hacker. i couldn't take a picture in time though.

i'm standing on jbeth's head. >:D it amused me. and her, too, apparently.

then we got the BRILLIANT idea to go up to random people and make the angry face at them. i think we got lazy so we sat on a bench and made the face whenever someone walked by. >D

AREN'T WE DORKS!? hammy and i do just as stupid stuff. yesterday i was hanging on a rope and she made it look like she was trying to cut the top of the rope with her dagger (while smiling, of course). how amusing. >:P

… >D

all this MS talk makes me want to play it. doesn't it make YOU want to play it!? >:B

FEAR MY PINK SHOES. some random person said to me the other day, "it takes a real man to wear pink." i replied with, "agreed." >D

OKAY THIS IS THE PART WHERE I STOP TALKING ABOUT THAT GAME. ALL YOU UNINTERESTING UNINTERESTED PEOPLE WHO STOPPED READING HALF WAY THROUGH THAT CAN START READING FROM HERE. >:O

work is changing so much. everythingggg. the way they're doing the shifts even. instead of closing the bakery at 7:00pm like we normally do, we're open till 10:00pm. X_X this is mostly because we used to be 99.9% self-serve. with all our new renovations we've got a lot of stuff that people have to ask for that are only accessible from behind the counter (and we have to pack it right there for them, not to mention). so yeah. crazy. i worked an eight hour shift today… starting at 1:30. X_x so i worked till 10:00. the cons outway the pros, i think…

with everything being changed around (and still being changed around somewhat)… i'm suffering from a slight loss of confidence in how i can do my job. you get to a point where you've worked at a place for a year and you know every little thing about it. i know that the code for whole wheat butter pan buns is 20319. the unsliced family-pack of whole wheat bread is 20334. commercial 8-pack hot dog and hamburger buns are on sale this week for 99 cents. our bagels come in frozen and we bake them. family packs of jumbo cookies have 8 m&m cookies, 4 chocolate chunk, and 4 oatmeal raisin. whole wheat hot dogs fit better in the 9-inch bag. don't ever put the pecan raisin fermented bread through the bread slicer. 60% whole wheat bread usually rises higher than 100%. things that cost extra on cakes: photo images ($7), figurine kits when ordering value half sheet cakes or 8-inch round cakes ($9), real whipping cream, more than one filling, and many other things people think up to bastardize our cakes. when a customer is within a comfortable conversational range, greet and smile at them when/if you make eye contact (and it has to be the first eye contact, not second or third… or none).

but. (and i finally make my point. aren't i funny? :D i'm in a "let's drone on forever mood" so there. >:P) despite all that that crap i have to know (and, believe me, that's just a very small fraction of the stuff i have to know) not knowing where everything is like a punch in the stomach. you just… don't know anything. i used to know things like… the garlic bread was on the fourth table up, on the right hand side, in between the sandwich bread and sub buns. now… i really couldn't tell you anything. fancy bread is kinda far up on the right side of the bakery. muffins too. buns across from them on the left side. cake donuts are over there somewhere too. raisin bread is also there for some reason. can't remember where the cookies are. yeah. and, of course, if i don't know where it is… every other customer wants to know where something is as well. and i'm like, "let's wander around aimlessly together, shall we? :D" -_- i hate it so much. it's like drowning. you know how to breathe, but you just can't. you remember what it was like to breathe when above water, but of course you can't do it underwater. -_-;

so aside from a lack of confidence in doing my job well, the super late hours, the general chaos of having stuff hanging from the roof, having to constantly sweep up pieces of drywall, and the customers complaining to me about the whole thing… at least i don't have to worry about working overtime anymore. :D that was the #1 thing that irritated me before the changes. i was lucky if i finished on time because there was just too much to do… and customers are really demanding in the 3-5 rush. sure, i have extra stuff to do at the end of my shift now (i basically do what the morning person used to do first thing). but still… if i don't do that… no big deal, the morning person can do it… >:D and it's totally dead at 9pm, let me tell you. well, there are customers… but the majority of them don't really need help with anything. so i can actually get lots of work done toward the end of the day. yay! :D

okay, enough about that. note to self: tell everyone some bad news in a later post. this post already has too much crap in it to post even more.

CRAP, i just realized i missed american idol. i won't tomorrow though.

finally, i leave you with something i made while my internet was down. :D a remix of mou ii no (yes, this is for all you seramyu fans. and please save target as… STREAMING IS EVIL! >:O and the file is small: 1.6mb). mao kawasaki's version has no music, so i added some. >_>;;;;;; i had fun… just totally making up chords and crap. also, see my music section for a bunch of other updated songs i did. including my crazyyyy version of the sunlit garden (did i ever post about that?).

*goes to play maplestory* …just for a while. i work at 8:00am. -_-;;;;;;;; whoever did the schedule this week must die.

it's all JEN'S fault! FUPPING JEN! >:O

>:D

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