i stayed up reasonably late on thursday night working on my final EDIT project. i didn't stay up until 5:00am, or something, nor did i have to be up early. i decided that if i didn't wake up at a decent hour (i always have the best intentions, let me tell you) i would skip class to finish the project which was due at 4:00pm friday (submitted over the internet). i slept in a little bit too much, as expected, so i ended up missing class. no big deal, though, i'm not too worried. i've been skipping my EDIT lecture for the past two weeks, and my japanese class on fridays is only one hour instead of two, plus i didn't miss anything worth any marks. so, yeah, all my big projects are over!! i'm so happy.

i was told thursday in astronomy class that i could make up one of my observing logs (i've only done one out of the required three so far) by attending a talk at the U of A about the new telescope being launched eventually, supposedly bigger and better than hubble (it's literally bigger, plus it incorporates infrared, unlike hubble which uses visible light). i don't want to get out my notes that i took of the event, but i think he was the head guy in charge of optics for the telescope. which is… the entire thing? i can't remember. i'm tired right now and don't want to think too hard. >_> anyway, yeah, that was actually interesting to go to.

today after work i went to the national japanese speech contest. it happens to be in edmonton this year, so i figured it'd be a great opportunity. the first place winners in each province/region participated in each category. my japanese teacher was there, along with one of my classmates. it was really fun, and i enjoyed it quite a bit. there were some really good speeches, and i had a couple freaky moments where i realized that i wasn't trying to analyze what they were saying… that i was just taking in what they were saying as regular language. i guess that's a good sign, right? :D

right now i am really tired. i only got a few hours sleep last night. :( i'm going to eat something, play audition, then pass out. what an exciting saturday night…

maybe setting my alarm for 9:00am was stretching it a bit. somehow i turned off my alarm and slept right through all my classes. because i do that from time to time when i'm really tired. i did it last semester with a final exam, remember? my astronomy class is going on right now, actually, and i live too far away to make it on time. and i can't afford a taxi right now. -_- so i emailed him the essay and promised to give him a hard copy tomorrow morning. i'll probably be penalized for lateness, which pisses me off because if it was going to be late, i could have used time today to write it.

ugh, and i hate missing genetics. whenever i miss a class, i really miss out on a lot of content. so much for finding out what reciprocal classes were. -_-

okay i need to end this. i'm getting even more depressed just writing it.

i'm such an idiot. why didn't i start this research essay sooner? you know it's sad when other people are telling you that you're the worst procrastinator ever. i'm just that pathetic, i guess. don't get me wrong here, i am now finished the essay. it's past 5:00am and i've been working on it straight since about 8:00pm. talk about cutting it close, eh? i'm used to just writing these things, but i forgot about the research part. and, going back to what i said earlier, i am such an idiot for not at least doing that part sooner. really. there are some excellent resources out there on supermassive black holes, particularly the one at the centre of our galaxy. i ended up watching a couple videos on it (one of which made me laugh at the insane dramatics and anthropomorphism going on in a video by the discovery channel… which made me laugh even more since i realized i was laughing at something that nerdy in the first place).

i tend to not break my paragraphs when i'm this tired. time for bed. srsly, people. tomorrow i have to figure out genetics and crap for an assignment due thursday. -_- i totally don't remember what a reciprocal class is. i know what a reciprocal cross is, but wtf. o_O and hopefully i'll start on my huge education project due on friday. i'm lucky that sensei didn't assign japanese homework until monday (and today/yesterday was the last quiz in the class). :D everyone else is busy doing their final presentation stuff, but not me! i love being exempt (thanks to participating in the speech contest), and it couldn't have come at a better time.

and i have a mountain of financial issues to deal with that have just cropped up that i am so not mentioning on here. and i just remembered about the stupid health care thing. ugh, if i keep forgetting about that i'm going to end up paying them that $1000. -_- such a stressful week, but i'll survive, hopefully. okay. yeah. bed. i'll proofread my essay in the morning. x_x good night, my sweetnesses. :)

i'll make this as short as i can because it's late and i can't believe i'm even up this late.

i needed to buy a bluetooth usb connector thingy for my computer, so i bought one. and, uh, yeah… once i start buying stuff over the internet, i just can't stop. i didn't buy little britain dvds like i wanted (too expensive, so i'll wait till next month), but i did buy stuff from a certain country down under. -_- yes, lbeth, i cannot believe it myself. but hey, everyone was drunk tonight, so what the hell. i might as well run amok too. >:P with mr. visa in hand. >_>

i've already spoken on AIM about my lovely situation with the government. i refuse to give them nearly $1000 for health care premiums. yeah, i need to file 2005 taxes, and fast. like, before april. the federal government basically sent me a letter telling me to file, AUTREMENT. plus if i don't file those and figure out my income and stuff, i won't be able to apply to get that $1000 cleared (if it's even possible) because i don't make enough money to pay health care premiums.

and here i am playing audition for hours on end instead of doing that. or concentrating on academic works. i'm supposed to have an astronomy essay due for tomorrow to submit for peer reviewing (worth 1% of total course mark). i'm writing that off because i'm so not done, and the real due date is tuesday next week. -_- i have status to upkeep in audition, you know. :( being the top 71st player in the game (as of tonight) isn't easy. :(

there. see? that wasn't so long, now was it.

okay, i never remember my dreams, and the only ones i ever remember are the ones that are so outrageous that i can't forget them. well, i had one last night that was sure strange. :D luckily it was a grep dream, and those are always nice, aren't they? :D

okay, so this was before tanya and karl's wedding, apparently. hammy and i went over to their house for reasons i'm not quite sure of (but who needs a reason anyway!? >D). we mostly sat around and talked. o_o it was kind of weird, actually, that i had a dream about sitting around and talking. so afterwards we had to go get some fabric that tanya was having her wedding dress made with, or something like that. so we get it, and they're parked right beside a big, open hill. i'm only realizing now that they probably don't have big, grassy hills in phoenix like the one that was in my dream, but oh well! :)

so i'm asked to hold this fabric for a minute, which was a bad thing because some of it fell onto the hill and was starting to slide down (physics doesn't apply at all, apparently). so i lunged for it, but in the process of doing that, the rest basically came apart and started sliding down the hill too. next thing i knew i was sliding down this hill on top of tanya's wedding dress fabric. o_o yeah. grass stains. i was like… crying. >D tanya was pretty upset, but she got over it really quick. by the time we got back she was fine, but i wasn't.

we went back to sitting around talking. o_o then tanya randomly decides to start going through my stuff. o_o and she sees a nana photobook, or something? i can't remember. i decide to let her look through my stuff since i kind of ruined her wedding dress. >_> i remember hammy being extremely bored the entire time. like… she was tipping on the back of her chair sort of spaced out, not really saying or doing anything. i remember thinking, "she just came to play their wii anyway. -_-" >D

then tanya asks me to come with her for a minute. o_o i'm like, "i'm gunna die." but she takes me outside (of all places) and says, "remember that really fancy chocolate that i gave to my coworker before? and you got all upset because you wanted some too? well…" and she hands me this little box with chocolates in them. o_o!!! i was ecstatic for some reason, but i told her i wasn't going to eat any, that i was going to save it for later. she then got an upset look on her face, so i said, "okay, fine, i'll give you the pleasure of watching me enjoy some." so i had a little piece, and she was all happy. and i was all happy. and i was like, "mmmmmmmmm!! is this cherry!?" and that's when i woke up. o_o

yeah. strange. o_o

and now i have major studying cramming to do for my japanese midterm. x_x just thought i'd share my dream before i forgot all about it.

i'd just like to say that i've started watching a new japanese drama. -_- as if i need another. but i'm definitely going to finish this one, and quick. it's a tad old, so it's hard to watch (i haven't been able to find downloads, so i'm watching it streaming on this site matt told me about). the subtitles are awful, and i wish i didn't have to watch it on there. anyway…

the show is called 1 Litre of Tears. maybe you've heard of it. one person's speech at the japanese speech contest last weekend was all about this show. it sounded amazing, so that's why i decided to watch it. let me tell you, the title is quite accurate. i've only watched the first three episodes and i think i've cried at least a litre worth of tears so far. ;_; maybe i'm just crazy-emotional, who knows. i know i'm a sucker for crap like this. -_- the background music does not help. there's just something about slow piano pieces that are played in the upper octaves. quite powerful, really.

anyway, if you don't want to click the link to find out more, it's a drama based off a true story where a 15-year-old girl develops an incurable degenerative brain disease. it's very hard to watch, even though you know she's going to die. they give you this information within the first minute of the first episode, actually. the fact that such an awful thing happened to such an amazing girl is what makes it hard to watch, i think.

oh, and i need to make a note of another drama i have been meaning to watch. gokusen. >_> but that's not exactly a tear-jerker. i just need to write it down here so i don't forget. :D

okay, just a little tiny update (haha, am i capable of those?) on the japanese speech contest in calgary that went on today. i just got home about an hour ago, and i'm just sooooo glad it's over. it wasn't a perfect speech, but it couldn't have gone better! i had so many people supporting me, in person and spirit, and i can't express how happy i am. if you went over the time limit they dinged a bell, which was distracting for most people and disturbed their train of thought. i've never been able to do my speech in enough time, so i knew i was going to get the bell for sure. but i didn't!! *_* and i didn't draw any blanks or anything, so it just really couldn't have gone any better.

i didn't win any prizes, but my classmate did. us two were the only two from our college taking part, so i'm glad someone won something. *_* hers was so good, though, and she had the audience laughing and stuff. she won third place, but that's still impressive.

overall, it was a good experience and i don't regret doing it at all.

hmm, did i mention i applied to the university of alberta last week? well, i did. just thought i should document that here since it came to mind. i'll keep you posted on my application. lol, i told you i couldn't keep this brief. anyway, yeah, first-time applicants have three choices for what faculties/majors they want to apply to. this is what i put for my choices:

1. faculty: education, program: BEd secondary, major: biological sciences, minor: second language - japanese.
2. faculty: science, program: BSc with specialization, major: animal biology.
3. faculty: science, program: BSc general, major: biological sciences, minor: japanese language & literature.

and there you have it. :D if i don't get into education (i know it's competitive, but i'm confident) i'd be happy to finish a biology degree then finish a two-year education degree after.

since this post is far from short, i might as well talk about something else. :D the audition online global service has started beta testing, and i'm rather enjoying playing with tanya. :D she catches on so fast. @_@ she's probably better than i am by now, despite the fact i've been playing the japanese version for weeks now.

anyway, yeah, i'm so tired. i got up so early after not being able to sleep at all last night. of course i didn't sleep on the bus ride to calgary. too nervous. i'm considering posting this and going to bed, but i probably won't. *posts now anyway, though*

don't worry, i'm not falling into the bad habit of not blogging, i'm just crazybusy, as many of you know.

i spent reading week staying up late every single night (one night i stayed up till 5:30am x_x). i hate hawaiians on maplestory. they make you stay up and don't even realize how late it is in your timezone. >:O as a result, i slept in very late every day. i didn't get anything done that i wanted to do except level up once on maplestory. that's great and all, but i still suck at life. :(

i didn't think this week would be so bad. i ended up skipping classes on tuesday because my sleeping schedule was still all messed up, and i slept right through into the afternoon. x_x i missed an important EDIT lab, but they're not so anal about labs as they are in biology (you miss one lab in biology and it's like 2% off your final grade; if you miss three labs you can expect to fail the course, or something like that).

i had a bio midterm wednesday evening. that wasn't fun at all. i then had a bio lab quiz the following morning which also wasn't fun in the least. i was pretty sick of bio in general by the end of yesterday, let me tell you.

i had an astronomy assignment due yesterday. the guy who sat next to me in class plagiarized his entire thing by copying off his friend. i was so close to tattling on him because i work hard to do my assignments properly, and here's some bloke who might do better than me yet he put forth no effort. -_-

japanese is a whole different mountain of fly-infested feces. i'm not going to list the specific stuff i had to do this week (we normally have various quizzes and assignments due every day), but i am going to mention my speech. the competition is in calgary on sunday. (did i even blog on here that i was accepted? well, i was. there you have it.) that's like, less than two days away. on wednesday she asked me if i'd be willing to get up in front of the class on friday (today) and present it as practice. considering i haven't had time to even memorize it (why didn't i over reading week!? >_< *hits self*) i was pretty worried.

so, yeah, i got up at 7:00am this morning and started memorizing. it was a bit easier than expected, and i do have it all memorized, the order is just messed up. like, i often can't remember which sentence comes next. i think it's easier to memorize scripts since you can play off each other's lines. :( as a result, i crashed and burned up front in class today. x_x at least i was able to look at my speech as a backup. i won't have that on sunday. so i have a lot of work to do, and i'm going to work on that tonight. i asked to have all weekend off from work, so i'll work on it all day tomorrow, too. i hope it goes well because i don't want to look like a complete fool on sunday. ;_; that would be absolutely devastating, in front of all those people.

it's low priority right now, but i might just have to share my speech with you sometime. maybe when i buy my video camera (i intend on buying one before summer, you know). i have an audio recording of it, but i've changed it a tiny bit since then. plus, if i do a video, i'd be able to subtitle it for you. >D but i don't want to worry about that now, i just want to survive past sunday.

if i'm somehow unable to be contacted after sunday, you can all assume i've slit my own wrists during my speech (for dramatic effect) after not being able to remember the words. :D